I'm going to step away from fashion for just a moment. I had an exhilarating experience earlier this evening. I went to my first singing lesson in about two years. I have taken lessons on and off for years in Toronto, but I haven't gotten around to it in London for various reasons (mostly involving the usual culprits, money, time...)
But no more excuses, I decided. And I don't know if it was the teacher, or just being too tired to care, but I applied myself better than I ever had in a lesson. I gave myself over to the experience wholly and just belted notes out. Granted I sometimes still held back a little, but I also broke through some pretty strong mental blocks. And you know what, I didn't suck.
Actually, I was even good. And it got me thinking about why it has taken me this long to think I could be. Why have I always held back so strongly before? Perhaps moving to London was the best decision I ever made, completely freeing me of negative thought-patterns and attachments that being in Toronto allowed me to hold onto. Here, there is nothing to lose (well, except money... damn you Topshop).
But should it really take drastic measures like moving across the ocean to progress properly? No, many of my friends back home are doing amazing things with their lives. I think it comes down to how we're wired. I can be a bit extreme and dramatic, so I probably work best in those situations.
In conclusion: crazy mind + reckless decisions = results!
